Precious Jonah…

By Ann:

Mike and I have been putting off having to write this post for a long time, hoping against hope and praying relentlessly that we would be able to share some good news with you all.

I just returned from visiting Jonah in the Pediatric Ward.  It is clearly evident that his brain suffered serious damage when his heart stopped during surgery.  His mom came to be with him two weeks ago.  He shows no signs of recognizing her.  As I write these words, my heart is breaking…all those prayers, all that effort, so many people loving on Jonah and praying for his healing.  His doctor believes that he is blind.  His mother is feeding him with a syringe although he is having difficulty swallowing.  He moans and is distressed.  As a mother, this tears my heart out.  It’s at times like this when my faith wavers as I ask, why?  Why did this innocent child have to suffer so terribly?  Why doesn’t he get to live a life like a normal boy running around after his friends?  Why has he touched so many peoples lives all across the world only to be unaware of his impact?  Why couldn’t he have returned to Samburu healed and whole?  Why aren’t we celebrating his healing?

I have no answers.

It’s been a hard, hard day.

At times like this, I fall on my knees.  In submission to a God who is sovereign over all of the hurt and pain.  In service to a God who hears our cries and our questions.  In honor of a God who loves Jonah more than we can ever understand.  In gratitude to a LOVE that is so perfect and so true that we cannot even begin to wrap our  minds around it.

But it still hurts so badly.

Would you please join us in our disappointment, our grief and our sadness?

Would you join us in leaning into the promises of God?  That He knit Jonah together in his mother’s womb, that He ordained each of his days here on earth, that He has His arms wrapped around his little body here and now and forever more.

The age old question of how a loving God could allow such suffering surfaces in me at a time like this.  But in the depths of sorrow and grief, I hang onto the one and only thing that I know to be true…God Himself.  As C.S. Lewis wrote: “I believe in Christianity (God) as I believe that the sun has risen: not only because I see it, but because by it I see everything else.”   Without Him, none of this makes any sense.  Knowing and believing that He brings beauty from ashes is the only thing I can cling to.  His ways are higher than ours.  His plans are better than ours.  He is always good despite what it looks like from our perspective.

Would you pray this prayer with me for precious Jonah?

“When my life was ebbing away,

I remembered you, Lord,

and my prayer rose to you,

to your Holy temple…

…Salvation comes from the Lord.”

(Jonah: 2:7-9)

Jonah’s story is not over yet…

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12 thoughts on “Precious Jonah…

  1. Mike & Linnea Jaconette

    We are so saddened to learn about Jonah’s condition. My wife and I, like so many others, have followed his journey through the posts from you and Mike. Your posting about him today has brought tears. Your words about your faith in God, though, were both comforting and inspiring. Thank you for sharing your faith with us. God bless Jonah and his family. We will pray for you and your family as you continue on in your mission.
    Mike Jaconette
    Battle Creek, Michigan

  2. Askew Family

    Ann & Mike,
    So sad to read this news – I’ll continue to pray for Jonah, for his mother and family, the hospital staff and for you. His story is still unfolding. Praying!

  3. Joan Evans

    My heart aches for Jonah’s mother, for Jonah and for all of you working to bring Jonah to full physical health. Your faith, Ann and Mike, in God’s love is marvelous and I thank you for sharing it with us. If only we knew God’s plans for Jonah it would be so much easier to accept Jonah’s physical condition yet through it all you remind us God is always with us. Thank you.

    And on this day before our American Thanksgiving I lift you and your family and the people you serve up to Our Lord in gratitude. God bless, Aunt Joanie

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  4. Jennifer

    Thanks Ann for posting. So much of faith writing is lament. Lament is still worship. We acknowledge that we long for a better world. For Jonah, and for so many others.

    • Mardi

      Amen Jennifer. The number of laments our hearts have poured out for lost children here is innumerable…. every one heart-rending, every one felt by the Father, and none wasted. We grieve with you Ann & Mike, but continue to hope for the other kids & adults who are deeply impacted by your love & compassion here.

  5. Oh, Ann and Mike, I am so sorry to hear this. I was just thinking and praying about Jonah yesterday, afraid that we were going to hear sad news like this. I am so heartbroken for him, and his parents, and you two and Michael and Jane, and everyone on his care team. I hate this. Like you, I have no answers; somehow Jonah is bringing us closer to Christ and His cross but it just sucks.

  6. Ann & Mike,

    My heart is breaking along with yours. I believe God put each of us on earth for a purpose. Perhaps Jonah’s purpose was to bring people together recognizing the true need in places in Africa like Kenya. I do believe in the power of prayer and I KNOW it begets miracle. I have seen it first hand. I will pray whole-heartedly for a miracle for Jonah, but I will also pray for understanding in the event that the Lord’s answer is “Not this time my child. He was meant for a different purpose.”

    I have to tell you that the quote from C.S.Lewis is a profound one and one I have seen twice in as many days. I believe in God and confess as much every time I step foot in my church. I carry him everyday as I know you all do. I am often reminded of the poem Footprints. It’s part of the reason it is my favorite poem. In the last stanza the writer says, “The Lord replied, ‘My precious precious child. I love you and I would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you.'” The Lord is carrying Jonah and all those who pray for him.

    God be will you all and with Jonah. Hugs to you both and to the children.

    Lorie

  7. cynthia

    Praying today for you all , for His comfort and solace to sorrowful hearts.

    “I say Thou art my God, My times are in Thy Hand.” Psalm 14:1

  8. Karen Farley

    Ann and Mike. My heart is so heavy for you and Jonahs family. I am grieving with you. There are no words really adequate. I do agree at times like this, we just have to cling to Gods promises even more than ever. Your quote by C.S. Lewis is very appropriate. One Im clinging to and reminded of is that we fight not against flesh, but rulers and principalities that are unseen. I choose to believe that this apparent loss here on earth that we see will somehow be seen in Gods eternal kingdom ahead as a triumphant victory even for Jonahs family. The least will be first and the first will be last.

    But Jesus did weep, and we are weeping in our hearts for you and Jonah and his precious mother and family. I’m still even going to pray for a miracle of full healing where only God would get the Glory. But even if that miracle doesn’t come in a physical form here, His word says He has already won. He does Love Jonah more than anyone. He has him. he will never leave him or forsake him.
    Nothing can separate Him from Gods love. Ever. Nothing.

    With deep sadness I offer my prayers today.

    Karen Farley

  9. Cynthia DeGroat

    I feel deep sadness… For Jonah’s mother as I would feel for my own child, and for Jonah as I do my son. I too, do not understand. We are to give thanks in all circumstances… this for me is a tall order… but I give thanks that Christ is with us in all this… the sadness, the suffering and the days of joy too. God bless you Ann, Mike, Jonah, his family. I am still praying… I will not cease. I believe and I have hope. Deep peace to you.

  10. Janet S.

    Thank you for the honest update.
    Agreeing with the words of your friends, as well…

  11. Barbara Cochrane

    Dear Ann and Mike. Thank you for the update on Jonah. He is in my heart always and I am so grateful for the burst of joy he brought to us all before he became so unwell. If you are with him, please tell him we love him. So glad I found your blog!! Barb and Doug Cochrane

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